It was my intention to update this each day of the slam.  But hunny and I got so busy with slam stuff that each night when we got in, we just crashed.  The Southern Fried Poetry Slam was quite an experience!  I met some really cool, really talented and really down-to-earth people.  Even those who I've seen on TV seem so grounded (Chris Imperial ROCKS!!!)  My hunny slammed 3 times and did a WONDERFUL job!!!  I knew he would....and he did!  You can see his scores and get HIS version of how the slam was for him at his page.  I met my TVA sister Rain when she and her friends came up for the slam.  Rain  and I bonded immediately!!  It was like seeing an old friend again and not meeting a new one for the first time.  One or two ot the poets diplayed diva-tendencies....but for the most part the energy of the weeked was high (though not always positive), everyone was friendly and supportive of each other and things just seemed to flow.  My fellow volunteers gave everything they had to keep things running smoothly.

When it was time for finals....the four top scoring teams competed against each other for the title of Southern Fried Poetry Slam 2005 Champions.  They were SlamCharlotte, New Orleans, Miami (thanks Delrica...you ROCK!!!!) and Newark.  After four rounds of some of the hottest poetry I've heard....SlamCharlotte came out victorious!  Something deep down in me knew they were going to win...even though going into the finals, they were down by a few points.  I'm happy for the team and really happy for the city.  If you are one of my two faithful readers, you know I've had a hard time here in Charlotte this past year....but getting a chance to be a part of Southern Fried and all the positivity surrounding it has given me new hope.  I may stay after all.   

On yet another note, I miss my hunny!!!!    He was here for five days....and for five days we were like a NORMAL couple.  We laughed, we touched, we kissed, we fought, we argued, we made up, we talked, we had meals together....just did normal couple stuff.  Then all too soon, he was gone again.  And as usual, I'm left with this HUGE space in my heart and I go into some kind of depression.  It usually lasts about a week but it consists of me crying, being irritable to those around me, not eating, only wanting to sleep (yet sleeping restlessly when I do sleep) and becoming almost reclusive.  It's so bad, that at the beginning of each depressive state, I wonder to myself if we should keep doing this.  I mean it's absolutely WONDERFUL when we see each other (even during the fighting....cause face it, we couldn't fight if we weren't together) but the state of mind I plummet into when he's gone is horrible.  I wonder if anyone, besides my sister, even notices.  Hell, I wonder if HE notices.  Notices I'm more on edge (with him), more irritated (with him), have a shorter fuse (with him), more insecure (about him/us) and even quieter (with him).  And I don't know how to NOT feel this way.  This is the most difficult relationship I've ever been in....because it's testing all that I am, all that I am not and all that I want to be.  I can't wait to meet the Blu that evolves and come out on the other side of this journey.  I sure hope hunny is right there with me.....evolved and ready for the next journey.  But for now....he's been gone two days and I'm just sick. 

Spread love ya'll.

Peace.